i hate the word "Everlasting".... bull shit.!@##$%^&*

everlasting love , everlasting friendship ... everlasting whatever-shit... all are stupid shits..

i'm not emo-ing ..i'm fine... i feel like crapping ..that's all..

It's so stupid but i need to admit it.. life is so complicated and unpredictable. It's like...For one moment, i think that everything is gonna be fine, the next moment, shits fall from the sky...brroodopp broodopp.. what can i say, this is luck ... luck comes to us ..we dont go for luck... if u're lucky, congratulations.. if u're unlucky, it's ur luck.

i dont know how to express myself,my feelings,my thoughts, these lead to many misunderstandings... blame my face, for once, i think i have face problem.. what's wrong with me...i dont know... i'm not emo-ing...i'm fine... yes, i'm fine..i'll be fine... let's hope everything is gonna be okay.... We shall see...

local fresh meat ain't fresh in nottingham....imported ones are okay... but too tender, i cant take it... guess i need to choose the bad from the worse... what talking me... whatever..

Here I am, blogging.... FINALLY... I have the urge to blog now which i couldn't understand why...Maybe i'm kinda emo and upset with my life now....

Recently, everything seems so confusing n complicated to me... perhaps i dont know how to handle problems.. or i'm just trying to avoid everything ... i'm fine with studies.. i'm fine with family , i'm fine with food , i'm fine with sports ( i got my 1st bikini,.. wuahahaha.. friends forced me to buy though..hehe)..i'm fine with most of the things that exist in the world... but when it comes to friendship and relationship... SHITTTTTTTttttttttttttttt....... I dont know where should i start from.. i like my friends.. i really do ... i'm not kidding... and i really hope everything will get back to normal.. get back to just the way it used to be... i know there's a barrier now...a barrier which cant be broken for the time being .... a barrier that needs forgiveness , understanding , faithfulness and all sorts of efforts to break it ... okay.. sorry.. i'm crapping....but i really do care bout u guys....

Relationship... Haiz.. total mess... whenever i say I'M SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE ..i feel so empty... i know i'm talking rubbish.... i feel so jealous as everyone around me is so INTO their boyfriends..... start with Zhi xuan talking non-stop bout her precious jenny...Ling-ling is so sticky to Daniel... Mel and Khang Khang... Jiam and robin the bird.. shireen and cuppycake.. Haiz.... i'm so so so lonely....whatever la .. i shouln't care... i can live WITHOUT guys.. i am no CHICKEN PIE... but sometimes i really dunno what i want in a relationship
.. maybe due to my indecisive -ness... i screw up everything... i shall just stay neutral and dont think anything more than friendship for the time being.... Right right right ??? Joel told me i'm horny and scared all the guys away... hahaha... funny.... i'm horny but NOT THAT HORNY.... i shall chill... study studystudy... study during the study break.....


i'm feeling better now...

HARRY BIRTHDAY ZOWY & SIEN & ME !!!

first of all, thanks to those who went mardigras with me.. i really appreciate it.. but i think clubbing is not fun without the pm9 bunch of ppl .. maybe i dont trust other ppl... dont dare to drink too much cos nobody i trust will fetch me back..i need ZOWY to fetch me back !!!! hahaha.... so , zo ,please go clubbing with me if u come down to kl... hahaha...i think i shall quit clubbing ... kinda sick of it..

well, thanks for all the birthday messages n wishes from everyone..... love ya... most of them told me the same thing .. get a bf soon.... get a good 1 ... joel told me to get a good bf n forget bout baboon n mongo...hahaha... yes .SIR !!!! i'm gonna forget bout them... totally....i promise... i needa let go to move on with my life..right right right ??...quoted from someone's personal msg on msn " letting go doesnt mean u can forget bout ur past"... true...very true indeed..i just think it's super true..who can forget bout the past so easily, we need some time to heal the wound which cut so freaking deep into our flesh..people who hurt us dont know the pain we suffer, because they dont hurt dont cut themselves, they hurt they cut the others..only ppl that being hurt know the pain of it..stupid idiot sucker bastard... .anyway.. i shall not let this bother me anymore....Whoosh ~~~~~

took lots of funny pictures with shireen n zhi xuan today ..those vagina, yoga, slutty , chimpanzee poses....hahaha.. thanks for brighten up my day.. haha.. i'm gonna post it on my blog once i get them... hahaha....

sally got a bf... i'm so jealous.... both of u make a great couple... so cute..... wish u guys all the best

to jason, my friend keep telling me u're super cute..... hahahahahahha.... one more fan added to ur fans club ..haha .. u know what she said... "wahhh~~~~ ur friend very cute lo...n he is a MEDICAL STUDENT .... WAH~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......" too shock until her period came the next day ... ahahahah...

currently studying in University of Nottingham.... which is far far far away from Damansara....transport is really a big problem for me.. need to wait for bus every single day.and always miss the bus ..zzz.....Now I know the convenience of car ... i miss my car ... my blue sexy car ...my small n delicate car.. i know u have scratches all over ur body and some big "scars", it's my fault.... but i dont mind.. no matter how badly injured are u , i'm gonna try to persuade my dad to bring u along with me to semenyih... I know it sounds crazy .. but i'm serious..

anyway, after being traumatised by the mongo incident... i'm fully recovered now... well, guess i learnt a lesson... not to trust strangers ... come to think of it, i think i was super silly to fall into his trap ... whatever la.... it's over... erase erase ERASEEED.... CURSE HIM... MUAHAHA....but thanks to him, i think i'm more matured now... i think la....shouldnt be so desperate at the first place... guess it's my fault... after 19 years of loneliness , how could i resist such a hot guy (not hot anymore) who came afforlessly to me... damn it.. now i know there's udang di sebalik batu... wtf... zzz..... i'm not gonna think bout it anymore ... ANYMORE !!!!!


gonna post some photos soon... but i dont know how soon is soon ..... just wait..... no connection in my hostel for the time being.... actually i love my hostel but it's not really a hostel, it's a semi-d .. yay !!!! 4 of us in a semi-d.. can u imagine how nice is it !!!!

random photos in FCUK.....




.........zzz.....


i think i've tummy.... take two ... suck it in baby !!!!!!














i think i'm becoming a make-up kinda gal,.... which is really sad... i dont put foundation though, just some eye-liner and concealer and blusher... what should i do ??I'm addicted to make up... shit.... i dont wanna rely on make-up.. i think i look really dead without make-up... ooohhh...whatever la/// .... my face, my choice, my rights ..

Wow..... can't believe i've been working in FCUK for 1 month... time passes damn fast.. still can remember the 1st day of work ...



1 more month to go ... Woo ~~ Hoo~~~....



lots of unpredictable incidents happened in this 1 month...

the funniest n ridiculous one is bout a customer accidentally pushed open the door (fyi : magnet door, no lock ) of the other customer(teenage gal i think) in the fitting room .. the father of this customer was damn pissed , shouted n scolded one of FCUK's staff for not taking the responsibility to look after the fitting room... but that staff already told the customer who pushed the door that the fitting room was full .. guess the customer was deaf.. but the customer in the cubicle hadn't started to change her shirt yet... but her father was so mad... kicking the cashier counter , complaining to our manager and taken the risk to say something which offend our company.. but DAMN FUNNY ..he said : " this is ridiculous man , u should change ur company name from FCUK to FUCK ....." ... so immature.... ooh please uncle, look at ur daugther ,she is not any super duper hot chick, she wasnt naked in the fitting room, u r the cock who gave us so much trouble..... that customer already apologized to ur daugther what u want us to do , ask that customer to marry ur daughter ah ??!! whatever la... cheap ppl like u is not meant to shop in FCUK.... uncle , u go CCK la....



yeah, this month got two new staff going to work in FCUK since 1 of the staff had resigned and another got fired ..anyway .....finally i can taste FRESH MEAT !!!!!!! ...wuahahahahah....not really edible but lookable la... hehehehe....



well, recently i really hate this particular staff in BCBG (fyi :BCBG , ISLAND SHOP and FCUK ARE UNDER the same company ).. such a biatch... eat SHIT shit shit la.. i dont hate anyone without a reason ... this stupid bimbo bitch told this malay staff that i wanted to seduce or menggoda him ... ooh... please please please ... you're just jealous i can wear any outfit i want in FCUK n u can only wear ur one n only black top and black pants ..zzz. u r the one who try to seduce him la..ppl already got girlfriend and u have boyfriend why the hell u wanna flirt with him... cheap cheap cheap like after-used condom ...

whatever la... do whatever u want , i believe in karma, sooner or later, u're gonna find a boyfriend which will look horrible , terrible and unable ..wuahahha...

guess i'll stop here , dont wanna bitch bout people anymore .. cos i believe in karma... but she is the one who started everything first ... i used to think that gal is hot until she criticised me out of jealousy.. since this gal work in BCBG, all staff(except for the supervisor) in FCUK agree that BCBG stands for Bitch Company Biatch Girl ... good for her.....

after 1 month working in ou.. i got a new friend which is not from FCUK.... is a HE....... wuahahhahahaahahhahahaahahahhaah............................but we are just friends la... but.... hahahahaha.......


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currently working in FCUK... life is hectic and busy but boring and lifeless .... imagine this, i need to stand and walk for at least 8 hours a day in the shop... (fyi.. Fcuk is kinda big, size of 3 basketball courts !!!!).. it's like walking from one utama to taylor's college , pass by sunway pyramid and summit and mid valley then back to tropicana .. a daily routine....

well, staffs in FCUK are kinda friendly , some are over-friendly though..kinda freak me out.. all malays,no chinese= no leng cai staff.... ... recently i found out my bahasa melayu sucks... really sucky ... i've this really weird slang which make them laugh like hell... very funny meh ??.. zzz. .. maybe cos i pronouns CARI as Carrieee or TAK ADA as Takada.. whatever la... i seriously dont like the way they call my name ... they like to call me Li .... i HATE IT !!! it's like those chinese kung fu guy's name .. LEEEEEEEEEE.do i look like a kung fu master to u ???.... yew... li theng very difficult to say ah >???...zzz...

i cant take it anymore .. i dont think i cant work for another day.. omg.. help me... everyday, i need to serve customer... SIEN !!! need to say , "MISS/SIR, DO U WANNA TRY THIS ??? or IF U'VE CITIBANK CARD, U CAN GET 10 % DISCOUNT , HEHEHE with a big fake smile.. " but i say it sincerely, from the bottom of my heart when a leng cai customer comes... wuahahahaha..... wuahahaha...

i think i lack of something .... something which able to brighten up my life , add colour to my life ..woo~~hoo~~..hehe... i dont have it for the past 18 years .. i need it ASAP , i'm longing for ONE... yes i'm desperate .. cannot ah ???!!! FRESH MEAT .... yummy... wuahahahahahahahahaha.... haiz..