Here I am, blogging.... FINALLY... I have the urge to blog now which i couldn't understand why...Maybe i'm kinda emo and upset with my life now....

Recently, everything seems so confusing n complicated to me... perhaps i dont know how to handle problems.. or i'm just trying to avoid everything ... i'm fine with studies.. i'm fine with family , i'm fine with food , i'm fine with sports ( i got my 1st bikini,.. wuahahaha.. friends forced me to buy though..hehe)..i'm fine with most of the things that exist in the world... but when it comes to friendship and relationship... SHITTTTTTTttttttttttttttt....... I dont know where should i start from.. i like my friends.. i really do ... i'm not kidding... and i really hope everything will get back to normal.. get back to just the way it used to be... i know there's a barrier now...a barrier which cant be broken for the time being .... a barrier that needs forgiveness , understanding , faithfulness and all sorts of efforts to break it ... okay.. sorry.. i'm crapping....but i really do care bout u guys....

Relationship... Haiz.. total mess... whenever i say I'M SINGLE AND READY TO MINGLE ..i feel so empty... i know i'm talking rubbish.... i feel so jealous as everyone around me is so INTO their boyfriends..... start with Zhi xuan talking non-stop bout her precious jenny...Ling-ling is so sticky to Daniel... Mel and Khang Khang... Jiam and robin the bird.. shireen and cuppycake.. Haiz.... i'm so so so lonely....whatever la .. i shouln't care... i can live WITHOUT guys.. i am no CHICKEN PIE... but sometimes i really dunno what i want in a relationship
.. maybe due to my indecisive -ness... i screw up everything... i shall just stay neutral and dont think anything more than friendship for the time being.... Right right right ??? Joel told me i'm horny and scared all the guys away... hahaha... funny.... i'm horny but NOT THAT HORNY.... i shall chill... study studystudy... study during the study break.....


i'm feeling better now...